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Reading Voraciously

I have been reading voraciously. I am reading Linux Device Drivers, PERL for biologists, Time, Science, Spectrum, Reckless Jill (P.G.Wodehouse), several newspapers and then also my tests and other whitepapers. At home I am reading a few novels and some interesting print outs. I was wondering how I am spending time in office and I found that I read one thing for ten minutes and then move to another and working in between.
I am multitasking and I find this to be pretty relieving.
I have always been a diletantte. I think I need to read a bit more, a bit deep. I need to read something on the cutting edge for a brilliant idea. I was reading about some great men on Time and I found them to be absolutely irrational and unbending. I will make a move soon enough.
I just wish I had been pursuing a relationship as willingly as I am pursuing the knowledge. That might just have made me "earthly" happy. (Sherene's word for what I cannot quantify)

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sherene said…
Well, I do not grudge you the fact that you find your happiness intrinsically. Hell, at so many levels, I envy you for it. But humans that we are (that I am!), it is a very tough to get where you are :) Of course, being at your place allows one to explore things like knowledge better than if one were in my position, so distracted by trivial issues. I do, at times, wish I could get there, but I'm not sure if I'm strong enough to be happy without all that I have now :)
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