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Amazed...

Yesterday was a day for introspection.
Tomorrow is the day for the last interview.
Today is a day when I am writing something good.

AMD four cpu-cluster load balancing is bad. That is about as close to the real issue I am. I am going to read load balancing issues in CPU's over the three days. I come back and write a white paper on this. I can definitely visualise this. I wonder, being a chemical engineer and a good one at that, for all the stunts I pulled off in IITK labs and otherwise... why am I chugging at this place where they make me do stuff which even CSE guys would not want to. Who wants to do R&D? I had rather lay in the shade and read a wonderful novel. But still there is a thrill everyday when I wake and I know that I am going to do this today and I am going to complete and then, only then come back home. I like this place for the challenges it throws at me. I would have never found a similar job in chemical industry (include pharma and biotech as well) in India.

I still remember the Braille typewriter I fashioned out of scrap at the lab. I still remember the Polylactic acid polymer threads I developed. Professors at NCL were amazed that I was doing these tests in test tubes. My final year was the most fulfilling year. Amazing period for me. I will cherish this and continue to hold out for more oppurtunities.

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