Teens to Toons

Thats what everybody's response is. Where did you go on your honeymoon. Sorry. We have not gone yet. What? And there it all begins. I am so slow and sick. I can't even move my butt. Let alone scratch it. I hope i can be better and do something worthwhile. While we have spent the first month at home only, I hope we can do the honeymoon int he first year. Work has taken its toll. Lots and lots of catching up to do. Lots and lots. I hope I can make it upto expectations.

दो शब्द थे, एक साथ नहीं मिलते मिले तो अर्थ खो गया, अर्थ मिला तो मर्म खो गया, मर्म भी मिला जब, तो बस मेरा खुदा नहीं रहा

I sit here with a very bad taste in my mouth. All of a sudden. I sit here hating the very life, I had scorned. I sit here with violent thoughts and violent words screaming in my mind. I sit here smarting, smartin from wounds that have been self-inflcited. I sit here very confused, utterly confused. What is it that I started out for, where am I, Am I still going towards where i started out for and Do I still want it? I have been having these terrible mood swings. I am all laughter one second and another I am tearing my hair out. I don't know. I seriously don't. It is a sea change from just months ago. Just months ago I was pouring myself into work. I had the direction, the will, the courage. And now I sit here wondering if I am fat or not. I hate this myself, I seriously hate myself right now. I seriously am disappointed professionally. Its my lament. My God, if you exist, give me a battle worth fighting for. Give it to me now, or take all that you have given me. No questions as