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The constraints changed...

Goa did something to me.
It made me human again probably. It made me feel vulnerable. Earlier I was like a rock, falling from the top, not caring whether I would break, whether I would gather moss, where will I reach. I just kept taking a course. That was me. Today I care.
I do not know why. Probably I am afraid for times that are to come. Probably I geniunely care about myself. Probably it is for my parents and family. Probably I am maturing. Probably I have learnt to make compromises.
I am not making a compromise here. I am never going to compromise on the rules. Rules stand as if chiselled on stone. I am going to be a bit soft on how I am going where I am going. That is all.
I will smile a lot. I am not going to be the stone. I am going to start giving a lot of people a lot of space.
I am not going to ask for divine forgiveness, but yes, you, up there, yes you... you know what I want...

Zindagi tune lahoo leke diyaa .... kuchh bhi nahin,
Tere daaman mere vaaste kyaa . kuchh bhi nahin,
Mere in haathon ki chaaho to talaashi le lo,
Mere haanthon mein lakeeron ke siwa kuchh bhi nahin,
Zindagi tune lahoo leke diyaa .... kuchh bhi nahin.

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