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Ahh and Ohh's..

They will say that I have turned back to form. They will say that my ego is back.
But I say... that I am never going to compromise on my self-esteem.
Somebody said sometime back on her blog that if one has to beg for their love from their loved ones, then they should. I ask "why?". As a human, the most important thing I cherish is my esteem. I might be too proud. But I deserve all the esteem, I want to have.
I am not going to put up with any shit I don't want to. I am not going to take lies and turn away and smile. I am probably not gonna talk anymore or spew some venom. I might not be the best, the most "this and that", but I am a lot of things and good things at that. Compromises are for weak. They might say that compromises can be a good solution sometimes. I agree, but I am not going to make any concessions from my side.
If somebody is brutal to me, I am going to be BRUTAL++.
If somebody plays with me, I am going to play rough.
I am not just anybody. I am me and I matter. I am angry probably.
But if anybody likes you, they will never make you feel rotten. They will never make you feel unwanted, unless you make a horrendous mistake. People make mistakes but there are limits to mistakes I am going to accept. And anybody who manages to brush my rougher sides, is going to remember me all their lives.
Best of Luck ... Puchee... you are the greatest.

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