It has been a long long time. I have not met a single woman who could make me feel "want" her. This is the truth. After her, I have not even talked to anyone in particular. I have not even made any attempt to do anything that would qualify as socialising. I spent the b'day all alone grimacing in pain. It is not flattering. Not many people like me. It is indeed sad. Let me see what I can do about that.
It actually began, quite reluctantly. Unnecessary as it may seem, life teaches you what you allow it to teach. Even Life cannot teach you what it offers you. One has to let himself dissolve into the experience and let it sink in, and that I might call religion or education. Whatever the other person is willing to accept. Nay. Does it matter? Nay.
Life is about teaching oneself. Being a self-thought-taught "person", picking up bits and pieces from various experiences, I tread on a path; I have myself laid out for myself. Never have I asked, in other words, begged for words, from "messiahs". Never did I think myself of having enough virtue, call it patience, to learn from others. So "rich" were my experiences.
Things change, dynamically. Responding to an open question, throwing caution to the winds, I immersed myself into a debate, with people who thought, had streamlined their thinking apparatus and abilities. Gradually, they pestered; read "lee...
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Well then, looks like it's time to move on.
And hey, belated B'day greetings..hope you have a fantastic year ahead, and if things are as bad as you feel they are, well, it only gets better from there! :)
Being hated is much better than being ignored ...
Besides, you cant help if some people love to hate you :-)