I feel like running away. Infact I am running away in a few hours.When I left home to create my own perfect new world, I was so sure of the way things will turn out be. And I often end up creating only the a slow lazy solitude with a eerie silence engulfing my thoughts. I am torn emotionally, for my heart and my mind agree and yet I do not settle the scores. Ever seen anyone you love hang between the two hells. I have been sitting in ICU's and waiting rooms for the past nine days. The pretense that I care has gone too far. I mean I know it can only end one way and still for the person you love most, you do as they would like it. You talk of things that you think they had want to hear. you dig this one small hole and watch them from there. My Dadi is a godly person. Since 1938, she has woken up at 4 and worshipped God. Thats a crazy 70 years. She has been on a ventilator for the past nine days. I wish I could count the number of tubes she is on. She has had a full life and yet. I me