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love and lies

You will have to forgive me. And forget me. She looked as if she had seen a ghost. But I love you. So what? It wouldn't work. It will. Just give it a chance. It will. It will. No, it wouldn't. But I love you. I love you. I love you. Her voice reverberated hollow in her ears. She might as well have been talking to the empty walls. For suddenly, for some unfathomable reason he was cruelty personified. Sometimes love isn't good enough. Sometimes truth isn't good enough. Sometimes, nothing is good enough. She helplessly saw him go away. Years later....... Hey, who'd have thought we'd meet again this way. She tried to feign cheerfulness and normalcy. She tried to act unperturbed. She wished inwardly her heart would flutter a little less. Yeah, it is. Errr..... you think we could..... She almost cut him midway. Hey, great news at my end. I found someone after we split. He loves me like crazy. And I am so happy to have him. Silence. You never really let me complete. Yo

Targetting Paris

How is life... I ask myself... I ask myself all the time and I wonder... I still make sense sometimes... But rightnow it's all about making it good and in shape.. Someday when the ship would come home... I had start again... and makes some music... Complusions and Pains and Mediocrity... I am running

For the love of god...

It was a great idea. Economterics class. The concept was to determine the uncertainty of a model... any model... and identify its "goodness"... It dawned upon me to use Heisenberg's Uncertainty principle to determine the uncertainty in Black-Scholes model... I sounded the idea to Abhishek and we both spent hours on it.. just before exams... a chance to meet the glory... of being remembered for the right reasons... making our lives worthwhile... Fuck exams... And after six hours of mind numbing... we came up to the solution and alas... It was a derivation of Gauss's Classical Linear Regression Model... How I cringed... I cried... after a long time for a long time... I was certain I had messed up my moment of truth... the faith was gone... Such moments are rare and they define all the burden of mediocrity that we carry.. Darkness and Numbness prevailed... I should have been born before Gauss... Anyhow I came up with a new incremental thing on Black-Scholes and that make