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For the love of god...

It was a great idea. Economterics class.
The concept was to determine the uncertainty of a model... any model... and identify its "goodness"...
It dawned upon me to use Heisenberg's Uncertainty principle to determine the uncertainty in Black-Scholes model...
I sounded the idea to Abhishek and we both spent hours on it..
just before exams... a chance to meet the glory... of being remembered for the right reasons... making our lives worthwhile... Fuck exams...
And after six hours of mind numbing... we came up to the solution and alas...
It was a derivation of Gauss's Classical Linear Regression Model...
How I cringed... I cried... after a long time for a long time...
I was certain I had messed up my moment of truth... the faith was gone...
Such moments are rare and they define all the burden of mediocrity that we carry..

Darkness and Numbness prevailed... I should have been born before Gauss...
Anyhow I came up with a new incremental thing on Black-Scholes and that makes me happy... I have been having a number of ideas and I feel that this is the time in my life when I can contribute.. when I can make a difference and it has taken hold of me like never before.. the madness has prevailed... and Sahi is there to take me to destination...

We will do it.. we might end up as nobodies but the satisfaction of knowing that I am working towards it.. provides me with sleepless nights and peaceful sleep when i can sleep...

So here it goes...
I wish you all the luck Jhai...
It might not end as wonderful as I want to... But it will someday and I will fight...

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