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Shifting Sands...

Another three days in pain and fever and delirium..
I like these days.. howsoever painful they might be..
I still have not recorded the one thing I have wanted to for a long long time...
Anyhow... I have felt unwanted and uncared for... steely resolve to get my due before departing...
Economics calls for some serious work... and I hate the undecided and uncommitted...
They are a part of me as well..
This then is the humanity to which we belong, with no hope of being able to break from it. Our fellow beings are our enemies, our own brothers are our executioners; we can disown them, we can reject them, but they resemble us insofar as there is hardly any way to distinguish them from us. Except primarily through our words, but above all through our actions.

Every cough is a cry to forgiveness and every tear is a dream gone wrong.

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