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Is it okay?

Faith is a process of leaping into the abyss not on the basis of any certainty about where we shall land, but rather on the belief that we shall land. - Carter Heyward
Now I can't have that much faith... that's asking too much from me...
I am not that good neither am I that innocent...
They say "Faith is a firm belief in something for which there is no proof. Love may exist for me, but for someone who doesn't have love in their life, there's little I, or anyone else, can offer to assure them that it exists."
The boundless beauty and inspiration in my life, which I've come to know as love, is worth every sacrifice; every dark path navigated; every heartache endured. For nothing else I've experienced nor dared dream can compare.
I say to myself aloud in my solitude "Have faith". Faith?
"what have I done" ... or rather "what I have done"?
I have sacrificed a lot of what made me "me"... for what?
I have sacrificed, am navigating a dark alley and am enduring a heartache... and if in the end, it does not come good...
I am going to tear his faith (is he is a he, I mean God, for all of you) apart and make him do his lines...
Let me see what faith is all about...

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