Teens to Toons

Life has this unexpected way of throwing something new to you constantly. What you grab onto is yours to keep. But sometimes however hard you try, you have to let go. You may say it is a loss, but people say that one must look at it this way, your hands are free now to try and catch the next thing that life throws at you. But amongst all this I sometimes lose sight of things that were once dear. Things that were a part of me. Skills that you never lose, things that make you who you are. Stuff that I never thought I could do without. But after a while, they start gnawing at you, constantly reminding you of their presence, demanding attention and time. And most of the times you find yourself relieved that they haven't left you completely. They will remain, no matter what, like your friends, looking out for you, giving an outlet for your thoughts and emotions. Making you complete... still they are neccesary but not sufficient.

I did not sleep a wink last night. And reached cafeteria at 7:30 this morning. Nocturnal ? Yes, but i don't think that's it. Why is it not okay with me that my friend is falling for a guy two years younger than her but it was completely alright with me that another friend was bitching about another friend? Narrow-minded? Maybe not. Conservative? Perhaps. How do you know that its time you finally move on? How?? Why does that hope have to die? Can't we keep hoping....that a miracle might happen? Why have i started liking someone SO much, even though I know nothing much about the person? Why has the person become so dear to me so soon? Officially going insane? Or maybe I'm only human? Once I fall, I fall real hard. How not to? Any preventions? I doubt so. Maybe don't fall at all? Impossible, I think! It's been a while since I got high. Or drunk. "I love you". Its been a while since I have said that to someone. And vice-versa. Isn't it sad when someone...

Fear. Fury. Hope. Hopelessness. Pain. Love. Lust. Some emotions that I can list out. Some emotions that basically govern me all the time. This is not the complete list, neither ordered. It is just a list. No reason why it exists. All I can say that when my mind goes numb with the effort I am putting in, just to cope up with the emotions and sucking up all the knowledge I can, it just needs to pour out. It has not had much of a chance in past few months and though I decided to cut down on posts, even the quality has suffered. All I do is work, stare into walls or sleep... and yes.. participate in class. There are fools who think I do this for some ulterior motive. Something deep down has always kept me that way. People tell me that I emanate bad vibes. Bad vibes indeed. People have told me that the first time they meet me.. they find me uptight, arrogant, a bastard, a no-good. Well that has been true.. I am all that till I become an essential part of your existence. Then you want to mov...

It has been so long... longer than ever before and I miss you... Its misty and its black.. and yet I am waiting... Waiting for that one glance for which I will wait... Its no more funny.. Infact it has started to get serious... I want a life...I want normal things which i believed I would always get.. I never thought that they could elude me.. Now I miss you like never before... I cannot study and concentrate... Come on... be the one as you were always... Love me like you have never before... and if you can't see me.. I am on my knees.. with tears in my eyes.. waiting for you.. like always...

Somrbody says... "If you can not take rejections normally, please do not propose. Die with that “sweet” love in your heart. It’s very romantic - you know!" Then why do you even spare a thought about it... Just a thought

Movie Name: Sannata (1966) Singer: Hemant Kumar Music Director: Hemant Kumar Lyrics: Gulzar Year: 1966 Bas Ek Chup Sii Lagii Hai Nahii.N Udaas Nahii.N Kahii.N Pe Saa.Ns Rukii Hai Nahii.N Udaas Nahii.N Bas Ek Chup Sii Lagii Hai Ko_Ii Anokhii Nahii.N Aisii Zi.Ndagii Lekin Khuub Na Ho Mili Jo - Khuub Milii Hai. Nahii.N Udaas Nahii.N Bas Ek Chup Sii Lagii Hai    ... Sahar Bhii Ye Raat Bhii Dopahar Bhii Milii Lekin Hamii.N Ne Shaam Chunii Hamii.N Ne - Shaam Chunii Hai Nahii.N Udaas Nahii.N Bas Ek Chup Sii Lagii Hai   ... Vo Daasataa.N Jo Hamane Kahii Bhii Hamane Likhii Aaj Vo - Khud Se Sunii Hai Nahii.N Udaas Nahii.N Bas Ek Chup Sii Lagii Hai

kabhi khud pe, kabhi haalaat pe ronaa aayaa... baat niklii to har ek baat pe ronaa aayaa... hum to samajhe they, hum bhool gayein hain unko... kyaa huaa aaj yeh kis baat pe ronaa aayaa... kis liye jeete hain hum, kis ke liye jeete hain... baar-ah aise savalaat par ronaa aayaa... kaun rotaa hai kisi aur ke khatir, ae dost... sabko apni hi kisi baat pe ronaa aayaa... kabhi khud pe, kabhi haalaat pe ronaa aayaa... Another of those phases.. I guess.. Work will take care...no doubt... it's work work and work for me...