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What if?

There has always been a time when we think of "what if".
There should always be moments in life about which we have to know and think, seldom, in retrospect, about what if?
Thats ok, as long as it does not take control of our lives. Thats ok as long as life does not circle aimlessly around forever till eternity. There can be many what ifs, but still if it comes to me, there will be one which reminds me of the stupidity in ego-bred individuals like me.

I was sitting across this very charming lady and I ask her places to go in a particular city. She tells me about the pubs and discotheques and such and such. And I lie there thinking of those. And then I go to them, with friends, alone, in groups... and then she years later, calls up and says why did you not go out with me?

And was I shocked? I was rocked. Since then, it has been a what if moment.

A true classic what if moment.

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